It's not surprising

"Does that mean you don't care if I cry?"

"I do care"

"Ok..."

"I'm just saying it's not surprising."

I'm not going to lie, that I do cry a lot. Probably more than the "average" person. But that doesn't mean it should be taken lightly.

I don't know what it is with me and crying. It's been like that since I was a little kid. I'd go to call on my friend, and if she wasn't allowed to play I'd cry all the way home (which was thankfully just around the corner).

Now it seems to be emerging even more. I cry at school. They all probably think I'm a nutcase. But at least its not as bad as it was earlier this year.

I'm not trying to make her feel bad, by acting like this - although, maybe I am. I know I shouldn't be trying to make her feel bad. But it doesn't mean I don't try it sometimes. Maybe this is what my mother meant when she said I was manipulative?

But no, because it doesn't work. Even if I try to make her feel bad she won't. Or won't show it. Which might be good, since she shouldn't be feeling bad anyway. I only want her to be happy but...sometimes it'd be nice to see she cares.