She told me, part of why she fell for me is because I took her and showed her there was so much more to this world. That there was so much out there. Something new.
I know I haven't changed, in that fact. I always see more in the world around me, I notice the beauty even when I am breaking inside. I know that as long as there is beauty in this world I will be ok.
But maybe it's her who has changed.
She doesn't want to believe anymore, that there is more out there. She says it is not comforting that bad times will pass. That things will be alright one day. But what more do you need to keep going?
Everything is so amazing. And yet people still get caught up in everything. Afraid of losing material possessions or of temporary restrictions. And while it can look pretty daunting sometimes...there is still so much out there. So much possibility. If you don't want it you're a fool. How can you see all the beauty and not accept it? It's there, inside and out of you.
It might come from my upbringing, in a house where the "today" would never be ok. Where privileges and items were taken away daily. Where I didn't have anything in the present to hold onto except the future. You learn to appreciate things so much more. You learn the value of hope. You don't take it lightly and you don't give it up.
Is it just that my opinions don't matter as much anymore?
Can I not even make a difference in someone's life?
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